I am so tired of thinking for a title so I am going to go with ‘Day 1’.

I always want to write something positive in order to spread positivity to the readers. But sometimes my joy jar goes empty. When I look back in life most part of it is filled with loneliness. I remember spending two months of summer vacations inside a room listening to songs and hardly ever leaving it during my school days.

Today I was reading a blog of a fellow blogger about the things you fear which got me into thinking about my fear. Guess what? I am living one. Have I told you I am smart? Yes, I am very smart. I am a very hardworking, talented, organized individual but I am constantly in pain. The more I think about my life, more the agony. I just need to keep working, to keep me distracted from my life. Sometimes I lose the will to live. Depressing!

Today I was looking at my partner’s face. He is another soul who lives his own life. He is keeping himself busy with reading some random articles, news, sports news and videos of some sexy girl doing yoga. Lately, our conversations are always about how sexy someone looks or some viral controversy or the amount of studying left. What happened to the intellectually stimulating conversations? I don’t know!

The list of things to do has also gone down. There are three things we do for fun now. One, go to terrace – which is now crowded by neighbors due to the lockdown. Two, play carrom – which I am bored of playing. Finally, watch a movie – well, who wants to sit in front of a device when that’s all you do throughout the day?

So today after looking at his face for a while, I asked him to talk to me. But as anticipated he had nothing to talk, just like me. My mind was making a buzzing sound indicating inactivity in my mind place. I cannot keep doing this anymore. I am quitting sulking! I am going to figure out ways to colour my life a little bit. I am going to start reading again (if anyone is wondering it is ‘Kim’ by Rudyard Kipling), I have to start painting more and finish my online ‘R’ class.

I am including few illustrations which made me happy today.

Source: Pinterest
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I am also including the song which made me smile – Smile by Jimmy Durante.

https://youtu.be/hDK6X0Nxa8M

Lyrics:

Smile,

Though your heart is achin’

Smile,

Even though it’s breakin’

When there are are clouds in the sky

You’ll get by…

If you smile

Through your fear and sorrow

Smile,

And maybe tomorrow

You’ll see the sun come shinin’ through,

For you…

Light up your face with gladness

Hide, every trace of sadness

Although a tear

may be ever so near

That’s the time, You must keep on tryin’

Smile, what’s the use of cryin’

You’ll find that life is still worth while

If you just smile

If you smile

Through your fear and sorrow

Smile, and maybe tomorrow

You’ll see the sun come shinin’ through

for you…

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadness

Although a tear

May be ever so near

That’s the time

You must keep on tryin’

Smile, what’s the use of cryin’

You’ll find that life is still worth while

If you just smile

If you… just smile

P.S. I love my partner so much. We are just stressed due to lockdown and staying inside for five months.

15 thoughts on “Day 1

  1. I loved this post. You start off really down and write yourself through and upwards. To me that’s what writing does, once you get those depressing thoughts on paper and somehow, for me at least, they become less than they were when you started. The illustrations are stunning, the sunflowers made me think of my wonderful France which I cannot visit this year, and I sang the song in my head. Never think life is not worth living it really is, just make most of even the smallest thing like a rose, or a piece of your favorite cake! Thank for sharing this, it made me smile

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    1. Thank you so much! Merci beaucoup!
      Very true. I started writing with gloom but towards the end the clouds above the head started moving away. By the time I finished, I was good enough to dust myself and move on.
      Glad to know that it made you smile😊

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  2. I love that song but always relate to Nat King Cole, with images of Charlie Chaplin thrown in. As for the pictures, Mrs Me has at least 13 in the same style. Hers all by Lucy Pittaway and you have to smile when you look at them. Great post, and who cares what title you use.

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  3. This post makes me smile! You’re not the only one who is having trouble staying busy or even happy — we, too, are at odds with each other over things to do. And as retirees, there are not many options. We love to travel, but many places are closed to tourists or we would have to quarantine to visit there. So, we’re plugging away at seeing things near our home and learning to read, take up some hobbies, or watch TV. But it’s hard! I love the artwork you’ve included — so colorful, charming, and detailed. Thanks for including all the paintings and the song.
    We appreciate your following our blog, Oh, the Places We See. Hopefully, you’ll find something you enjoy about it as well.

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    1. I am extremely happy to know the post made you smile. Yes, this is indeed a tough time for all of us. I hope it ends soon.

      Everyone has such a unique journey and it is fascinating to read each one’s experiences. Your blog is a pleasure to read. Thank you!

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